The last year and a half of my life has been perhaps the most self-revelatory of my entire life. I do not recall a moment in my past where I have been as dedicated or as intrigued to understand who I truly am.
In some ways, that really saddens me. It seems such a shame that I have spent decades dedicating myself to what other people wanted and then defining my self-identity based upon how well I provided that to them.
However, most of the time I have just found the journey to be fascinating, enriching, and hilarious. I have also found myself a little obsessed with “do-overs.”
Since January of 2024, I see my life to have been focused on three categories:
• Escaping my past
• Recovery (and what I have come to call) “the in-between”
• Chasing my future
Escaping my past might also be called “releasing past choices.” No matter what you might label it, it’s not been an easy experience. It has required deep sacrifices, unwavering determination, (and if I may be so bold) untold courage to escape a life that held such unhappiness.
I don’t think anyone can come out of such an endeavor without a fair amount of post-traumatic stress and emotional scars. Not only would I choose it over and over again, but I am proud of myself for making it through without giving up.
The in-between has been especially fascinating. This is the phase I consider myself to be in right now. Or perhaps more accurately, the part I feel I’m at the end of. The in-between has been fraught with choices made in the midst of what psychologist call “fight or flight.” I see those choices as having been made impulsively or (at the very least) not fully thought through. This is where the desire for “do-overs” comes up. Since January of 2024, I have bought a car, sold that car, and bought a different car. I purchased a dining room table, sold the table, and bought another table. And that’s just a sampling of neither the smallest or biggest of my desires for “do-overs.” My self-judgment on these choices has been harsh. Part of the in-between has been to try to understand that “wounded little Radleigh” was just doing the best he could in the moment. Self-forgiveness on points like that is a work in progress.
The true magic of the in-between has been the revelations. Buried with my errors of judgment has been a chest of treasures. As I have made new life choices, I have figured out who I am without the influence of others. When something seemed like a monumental boo-boo to me, my time of healing allowed me to be able to fully hear my heart say “this is what would really make you happy.” And that is what has me so very excited for this next phase of my life!
I do not see chasing my future as the same thing as running away. Or not living in the present. I see it as unbounded enthusiasm for taking the parts of myself that I have discovered and setting them free on the world. (With apologies in advance to the world.) The in-between has brought to me untold riches of understanding of who I am and what makes me happy. I am literally beside myself to begin. Right now, I have the patience of a 5-year-old on December 23rd.
Which is to say, none at all.
I’m always the one to say “no time traveling.” It’s my way of saying that regret or guilt over the past serves no purpose. And since my time machine is perpetually out of order, wishing I’d done any of a thousand things differently is pointless.
And yet… there is another side to this.
You might have heard that my dear friend Dougall Fraser and I are gearing up to teach a new class called Oracle Shift. The premise behind this project is the concept that parallel lives are a real thing. Dougall and I also talk about past lives in the class, but many people know of that concept. Fewer people may have heard of parallel lives.
The concept is that there are infinite versions of you out in the realm of the Divine. Some have made the same choices as you have. Others have made choices that might be judged as more promising than the ones you have made.
Some have made choices far less agreeable than you have.
Either kind of choice holds the same type of untold riches to make your life far more amazing! Oracle Shift is meant to help you to access those riches. To help you tap into those other lives and gain that wisdom so that you can turn your past or in-between into chasing your perfect future.
And while this information is highly desirable, I have found myself seeing it all from a surprising new lens.
Can I time travel? No.
But what if I could reach out to those other Radleighs out there in the Divine realm to share with them what I have learned from escaping my past and the in-between? What if I could take the magic I have experienced and throw it out into the Universe in such a way that some other version of myself might have these insights 10… 20… even 30 years earlier! Wouldn’t that be freaking amazing?
Wouldn’t that be just the cat’s pajamas?
If you are in the phase of escaping your past, or living in the in-between, or even if you’re actively chasing your future, I am betting that you might find Oracle Shift to be a lifeline across timelines.
Check it out: Oracle Shift
Now, if you’ll excuse me, I have some chasing to do.